I guess this is what you’d call this. First to start off, if you don’t want to read anything negative I warn you now, don’t read this. Anywho. As of today I realize everything in my life has gone down again. All of my best friends still live across the country & I continue to be left alone. Being alone is probably one of the worse feelings in this world. I just wish things couldve stayed the way they were 5 years ago. But that’s what I get for living in the past I assume. It’s hard to let go. I just want to be happy again. I have no job which was the only thing that kept me sain. But that ended up failing just like everything else in my life. I have this really nice guy in my life who I care about beyond words & it hurts me so bad to know that we can never be anything because Im too chicken to tell him how I feel. I’ll start these lonely cry sessions again I guess until things get back to how they should be if I don’t stress myself to the point of death this time. There’s no other word for this than depression. I’m not afaid to say it. I just wanna be happy again. Can someone help me before it’s too late?